My husband tells me that the emotions I am galloping through right now come from buyers remorse, which is completely normal he also tells me. Yesterday we noticed that the window in the door into the coach was about an inch lower than it should be. I removed some screws to see what was going on and discovered that the ‘putty tape’ that holds the window in place was hard and broken in many places. So we bought some more and can hopefully do the job adequately so that the window doesn’t fall and break. We also bought a roll of ‘Eternabond’ to the tune of $75. We need to patch the gray water tank, and it will no doubt come in handy for other issues which require something a bit more permanent than duct tape.
We also took Little Green to a mechanic to have him give her the once over. The ‘fan clutch’ is broken and the radiator needs to be cleaned out. And we need new belts and hoses. And all of this to the tune of over seven hundred dollars. Ouch. But she started up just fine after sitting in our driveway for a week. So there is that.
Interiorially (I can make up my own words if I feel like it), the carpet is torn out. So now it feels even more old and dirty. She needs a thorough vacuuming, and then a good scrubbing with some Murphy’s oil soap. Then we will show our ineptitude as we put down linoleum. God help us.
Plus, I dreamed last night about going on the road for a summer, and woke up horrified, realizing that to take my sensitive, homebody daughter away from her sanctuary, her bedroom where she has her stuff and herself and her quiet and privacy when she wants it would be very cruel indeed. She would have no privacy, no sanctuary in our little motorhome. What kind of selfish idiocy would make me (want to) do such a thing? Maybe it has all just been a diversion of mine, a chance to escape from the dirty dishes and the everyday demands of my father as he recovers from surgery.
I’m overwhelmed. (This is not an unusual feeling for me). I also found out today that the position I had applied for at the kid’s school will not be filled by me. I had been banking on that job to help us ‘make bank’ for the motorhome dream(s). But at least we got our tax-rebate-stimulus-check. Thanks G.W. It definitely helps. And we have finally had a little bit of monsoon rain, which has lowered the temperature considerably. We’ll be all right. Just talking through what I’m going through here.
